never
mom and dad left the party and we were on our way to the emergency room
whats the verdict doc? surgery in an hour he says and all of a sudden the walls started to close in
noises started to fade out and the people started to get blurry
was this really happening?
mom started to cry it wasn't her fault but nobody ever listened because you're too young for this and just drink more water you're probably just dehydrated were the excuses given
really?
after surgery the bad news kept pouring in a four inch ovarian cyst had burst in the abdomen thankfully the infection was cleared out and to be treated by antibiotics and there was minimal scarring thank goodness but...
but what?
endometriosis has completely taken over the right ovary and the left is undergo fertility tests failed we are sorry
what does this even mean?
you're so young but any plans of ever becoming a mother one day are nearly impossible but just how long were you in pain? the doctor asked
over a year...
had this been caught earlier it could have been treated and perhaps prevented but it's too late now on the positive side however the infection was stopped and you're on your way to health mom cried and cried
but mom it's not your fault
you didn't know
doctors aren't always right
God has the answers
one year later ovarian precancerous cells popped up and the visitations to the doctor seemed like they were never going to end but they did end and so did the precancerous cells still failing fertility tests to this day but...
God has the answers
Summary:
At 17 the doctors found stage 4 endometriosis on my ovaries, a very common disease in girls. It affects everybody in different ways, some girls will never know they have it as they are left with no symptoms, some cases are moderate, others are severe, like mine. I no longer have precancerous cells and don't allow the bad news to interfere with my daily life.
I really enjoyed reading your camera eye! Your word choice flowed really well! I feel like I am in this moment with you and can see and hear what is going on around you. Hearing the doctor’s words in the background was really captivating as well. The memories and details you included in your camera eye made me sense the emotions you must have been going through during this time. I like the repetitive words and phrases you used throughout your camera eye, such as “God has the answers” and emphasizing the word “never” at the beginning. Overall this camera eye was very successful and intriguing.
ReplyDeleteThis is a really well written camera eye. I cant even begin to comprehend what going through something like this would have been like. The part with your mother crying really got to me because I know that is one of the worst feelings in the world to see your mother cry over something because she believes its her fault. You boiled down the camera eye to it's original roots and intention by portraying something that cannot be put into words through observing sights and sounds. This is a phenomenal post and I really wish you the best of luck with you're fertility tests in the future.
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